I am not even excited that the anniversary is just round the corner.
No plans. It’s ok. I don’t even have the mood the celebrate.
1 is just a number.
:: Yours Truly::
Sep
07
10 months ago was the last entry. Gosh time passed very fast don’t you think so? Hmmm….many things happened during this period..happy moments, sad, angry, stressed…all mixed up into one concoction..
It’s hari raya this month and how to i celebrate it? Nothing much though. First time celebrate it with husband and in-laws in Malacca. Dad is still hospitalised from his toe amputation due to gangrene. All because of his stubborness. He refused to go hospital to get treatment and for his follow up check up. Angry but sad. But what to do…things has happened and I have to accept the fact. It’s been almost 2 months he’s at the hospital now. Praying hard that he recovers fast. Pity Mum because she has to go to and fro to visit him everyday.
Here I am, trying to be positive each day. Many things really happened. Not only Dad being hospitalised, I have lost a good fren just 4 days before Ramadan. Missed her much. Her lost is a great blow to many of us. She connects me to many other frens. Love her much. Her battle with Pneumonia was a brief one. We thought it is just a minor asthma attack. Allah loves her more than we do. Al-fateha for you my dear fren, Raihaniah. Greatest regret that i did not to visit her at the hospital. My final moment with her just before her body is brought to the cemetary. May Allah bless her soul and till we meet again dear friend. You will be greatly missed.
I will update more of my current life soon. (rushing to type this as my lunch hour is running out!)
Yours Truly
Nov
06
September 17 was my last writing. That ‘s 2 weeks before my wedding. I was super busy with the preps and the conference that I had no time to blog here. Things didn’t went really well. On the contrary people said that it was a beautiful wedding. Gosh but they didn’t knew the hell that I went through.
Seriously I didn’t enjoyed the preps nor the wedding itself. One disaster after another that me n hubby had to face. Even after the event itself.
1st week after the wedding, I was busy with the coordination with the conference. Then we had our wedding in Melaka. 2nd week, was still busy with conference. Hubby wasn’t too happy. We didn’t spent much quality time. And only time we met was when we went to sleep. 3rd week, after the conference.. I was too fatigue to do anything and ended up sleeping early, just before hubby reached home from work. We were constantly arguing each day.
I just do not know what’s happening but I began to wish that I didn’t decide to marry in the first place. Still alot of things to adjust or adapt with.
Now it’s hubby’s turn spending most of his time at work. Till now it has been 48 hours at work. It’s Deepavali holiday and he has no manpower to take over. In order to meet him, I went help him out at the store yesterday and this morning. I can him feeling tired but he forced himself to continue. His staff has not been very helpful. One of them literally taking advantage if his kindness. Keep coming late to work and always saying that hubby is bullying her. Gosh… I wish Allah lightens our burden. My hubby has been lenient enough to her as she is pregnant. But she took advantage of her condition. I was pissed but there us nothing much I can do.
I cried when he called me that he is unable to come home again tonight. Another staff can’t come to work tomorrow. 2nd night without him. Life is cruel indeed and it isn’t a bed of roses for a newly wed like us. I’m trying to be patient on all this matter and I wish I can lighten hubby’s workload.
Dear Allah, please have mercy on us.
~Yours Truly~
Sep
17
Exactly 14 days to go to the BIG day. I am now listing all the outstanding matters to settle. It’s going to be a mad race in this 2 weeks. Wedding invites still not settle among my family. Mum and Dad is finding time to visit our relatives to pass the card to them. The list still goes on. Never ending. Hope we can distribute the cards in time.
Monday will be our final fitting day. Hopefully the outfits looks nice. Im crossing my fingers here. The nuptial gifts still pending too. Im trying my best to start doing.
Tuesday, will settle the 80% deposit for the catering as well as for the decor.
Come next sunday, final trip to JB to buy all the oustanding things for the wedding preps.
Next, need to call the kadi to confirm. Meet Abang Ariff to finalise on the band arrangement for the actual day…yikes..the list goes on…
I am feeling the rush already…and Love is busy mending the store…haiz…
Pray for the best k peeps. Hope to see you on my Big Day..
::Yours Truly::
Jul
21
Feel so down lately. Birthday was not so good as expected. Mr Fiance forgot about it totally. No calls or message from up till 10am when we meet. Just when i reminder him what day was that day…it then stumble upon him that it’s my birthday.
Since then, i have no mood to meet him and if i have to, i just obliged. Gosh.
Here at work. Im just coming to work feeling that im being force to come. No motivation, no morale. Since the announcement of the appraisal, i rather work accordingly. Nothing more and nothing less. Maybe this is my challenge that i have to face towards my wedding. Trying to stay positive.
But i really wish i can drop everything and go. Go somewhere and leave everything behind. Need the peace, need the space. I really wish for it.
::Yours Truly::
Jul
14
in 4 days time, i will be in the club 30.
Feel so old already. haha. Still trying to digest that im going to the next phase of my life. Gosh.
I will be on course for 2 days…away from the office. Loving it..
Weekend will be a simple one.
Will be choosing our wedding photoshoot photos and finalized on the invites.
Birthday shall be a simple one again this year. Nothing more.
And Im glad.
Thanking Allah for allowing me to live for another year.
Next year, only HE knows.
::Yours Truly::
Jul
13
suddenly having that jitters…feeling sick in the stomach…haha
wedding is just about 2 and half month away.
each day just thinking what task to complete.
each week been heading to JB to do errands.
Last week, had our photoshoot.
this week, to choose our photos for the big album. Going to finalise the wedding card too.
Havent set appointment with Fendi regarding the decor. Shutz…
My life is filled with errands to do nowadays..
For work, i have been “on strike” mode.
The same person has got the promotion…each year..
where most of us..have to wait 8-10 years to get the promotion.
how unfair!
I am just counting days to the moments i placed that letter of resignation on her desk. Really just cant wait.
And i just cant wait to be a Missus soon. Insyallah.
::Yours Truly::
Jun
30
is what i need to vent out all my frustrations from work.
If not because of the wedding, I would have issue out the 24hrs notice.
Dear Allah, please bestow me with more patience till end of the year.
This work is killing me softly.
::Yours Truly::
Jun
23
to the BIG day.
* How fast time flies. Gosh. I am rushing to many things with regards to my wedding. One at a time. Things to settle end of June and in July:
* Meet my MUA for my nikah arrangement as we have to settle for 2 Oct instead of the 1st. Need to rent white collar shirt for dear fiance too.
*Collect Love’s baju melayu on 5 July @ Tanjong Katong Complex from SY Boutique. Hope the baju turns well.
*Pre-wedding photoshoot in JB by Exclusive Bridal @ Angsana Plaza on 7 July. Going to take the whole day there. Leave from work taken already. Right after photoshoot, we going to source for the wedding invites and the bunga pahar also at Angsana. Killing 2 birds at one time. Else no other day to come and shop. Both of us are busy with work at the moment.
* After all that, i have to arrange to meet Fendy from Estheme to discuss about our wedding decoration. We are much settle with the color theme. Just need to input what kind of setting we want.
*Lastly, at the end of July, I will have to make the orders for my wedding favors. I got a great bargain from an online seller yesterday. Going to close the deal once i got my bonus. 
Apart from that, all the nitty gritty things which i think i will delegate to my family members. Insyallah, all will be done in due time.
More of counting down to the day.
::Yours Truly::
Jun
09
Yet another one settled.
Alhamdullilah.
Appointment date set for studio photoshoot
7 July 2010 @ Exclusive Bridal.
Looking forward to it.
But first, will try to shed a bit fat away…hehe
Afraid that i cant fit into outfits that i like.
Chia Yo Izan!
:: Yours Truly::
